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I never really know what to write when I’m starting off a post like this. I guess if I wrote more often not only would I be better at doing it, but I’d be able to start it as though I’m talking to a friend or family member that I see every day – very casual, starting wherever I need to without much of an introduction. But that feels silly when I really don’t write here much. I get cranky at myself when I think about it because my constant whinge to myself is that I don’t really have many people to talk to about the things that matter. Aaron is fantastic for many, many things, including listening, but I would begin to sound like a broken record if I told him every time I was feeling down and why, and really the general mood would be pretty lame for like 98% of the time.

That all being said I’m actually in a pretty good mood today. Aaron’s working, which sucks, but he was home this morning and we had a very relaxing time just the two of us, with noone else in the house. It’s going really well between us lately (not that it ever really isn’t, but we have our times) and I crave for the times when we can just hang out together, even if we’re doing our own things. I don’t know any couple quite like us, we seem to be able to stand being around each other pretty much all the time and I still find it a little heart-wrenching to say goodbye to him, even if I know we’re only going to be apart for a few hours. Lame and dependent? Yeah, I guess so, but it’s not doing me any harm so I might as well enjoy it πŸ™‚

Also, I’ve been thrilled with having a Nintendo Wii these days – we bought one a couple of weeks ago and got the Wii Fit Plus, Wii Sports, EA Sports Active, and Cricket games with it. I’ve been getting a fantastic workout with the Active game and watching my weight slowly diminish using the Wii Fit Plus game. Plus, Aaron and I really get a kick out of playing together in Tennis, haha. It was a bit of a blow to the budget but most of it is an early birthday present from Aaron and my parents, and it will hopefully be the thing that kick-starts the motivation to really shed a few kilos. I can’t wait πŸ™‚ So I completed a great workout this morning and I’ve been noticing my mood really seems to lift once I’ve done it so it’s a double bonus! πŸ™‚

I have been sick though, which sucks horrifically because my practice has become all but non-existent. I’ve been trying to keep up with it by going through jazz standards in all keys on the piano and keeping up the ear training, but my throat has been so sore and swollen that the only time I’ve picked up my clarinet in these last two weeks is when I’m at uni in rehearsal, and every time I come home feeling like crap because I’ve overdone it. It’s a bit of a stress – the tech exam is only a few weeks away now – but I’ve been able to get a lot of the theory/academic side of uni work happening which is, I guess, the next best thing. I am finally starting to understand figured bass and part-writing (which, by the way, URGH) and am basically up to date with most things… a week or so behind in other things. It’s not too bad considering they do expect us to put in a hell of a lot of work with these subjects, and most people are doing nothing at all. So that makes me feel alright about it πŸ™‚

Wow, it truly amazes me how many words I can churn out when I’m really on to something. ANOTHER reason to write more here, because it is feeling fantastic just to write about my life at the moment, as mundane as it may be, and just make sense of it a little bit. That being said, if I try and make it a goal to write more often, or every day, it will probably fail because I’ve got too many goals I’m trying to complete at the moment! I feel like getting the exercise in is already pushing it so I won’t make any promises… like always πŸ˜›

Well it’s 2:30 and I should try and get some stuff done. For my own benefit, I’ll make a list:
– Notes for Chapter 7 & 8 of the theory textbook … and I’ll do some of the self-review questions if I have time and/or am feeling up to it.
– Get a bit of practice done. Mostly piano and ear training, although I might try and just get 10-15 minutes of clarinet practice done, just so I’ve done something for my tech exam
– Hang up all the clothes in our room – its ridiculous how lazy we are, even once our clothes have been washed and dried… we just never hang them up :/
– While I’m at it, I think I’ll also put on a new load of washing…
– Clean up just a few things on the floor of the lounge room (seriously looks like a bomb’s hit it… every time we walk in, we have to walk AROUND the huge pile of crap in the middle of the room.. it’s pretty bad)

Do you know, that sounds like a pretty good list to go on right now. Hey, wish me luck! πŸ™‚


As this page was loading I was trying to think of the reason why I don’t write here a lot. I really couldn’t come up with anything until I realized – right now, I am alone. There are things going on in the house around me but I’m in this room alone. And I look at all my other posts and not one of them has been made when there are people in close proximity. I feel embarrassed about what I’m writing, which is extremely silly, but I do. I hate writing while people are looking over my shoulder, especially cos I write, then I edit, then I edit, then I edit, until I’ve got something half decent.

Anyway, in terms of writing more often, it probably won’t happen. I don’t get a lot of time to myself anymore (which is fine with me – I’d rather my time off coincides with Aaron’s cos I don’t see him during the day usually) and it seems as though that’s what I need to write freely.

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Okay, so I’ve tried a few times to get a post up over the last couple of months and usually they’ve been of epic proportions and I never end up finishing them. So I thought I’d just write a quick one now because I don’t want to lose this, or the habit of writing all together!

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I'm Monica - a 21 year old Aussie girl trying to understand life. Teaching music and studying to be a primary school teacher. Blogging about everything and nothing!


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